Fuck my high school bf Micheal (…yes it was actually misspelled like that!!! 🥴) but also thx for teaching me some valuable life lessons n shit I guess 🫠

When I was like 13 in my freshman year of high school, I had this really awful, awful, controlling-as-fuck, selfish-as-fuck boyfriend that I thought I was in love with. Like I remember he told me I “wasn’t allowed” to wear anything but a one-piece swimsuit when going to the beach or pool or anything. And you wanna know the crazy part?? I, like the fucking dumb bitch I am, fucking obeyed every insane, misogynistic, stupid as hell controlling demands. If I ever tried to stand my ground and argue against one of his “rules,” we’d just end up getting into a huge fight and it would end with him threatening to kill himself (or at least hurt himself in some way; on purpose) if I didn’t do what he said, so ofc I didn’t wanna be responsible for anyone getting hurt so I wore the ugly af one-piece swimsuits every damn time I went swimming, countless times as my family was living near the beach at the time.

Tbh I really hate that young lil early teenage me had to go through that kind of BULLSHIT, but also I can recognize that those experiences allowed me to become someone who can easily recognize men who are only seeking control. And therefore, I’ve been able to avoid repeating the whole controlling-bf situation, thank god.

Ugh, I’m so nauseated just thinking about him. Omg wanna know his name? It was Micheal. And no, that’s not a typo! His parents were just some weirdo rednecks who apparently didn’t even know how to spell a name as common as Michael. I mean, okay I get it you’re sheltered, but like if you’re that committed on naming your kid a certain name, I feel like you could be bothered to do at least ONE lil google search or smth, no?

Anyway, end rant.

TL;DR: I had an awful, terribly controlling and misogynistic boyfriend when I was 13 and although it was one of the worst times in my life, I learned a LOT about people and what some ppl will do to get what they want. And also learned – finally, thank god – to stay the FUCK away from misogynistic, abusive, redneck men who think they are entitled to you, your body, and everything you do, say, wear, eat, etc.

Honestly THANK GODDDDD I was able to eventually (after two full years of dating him and dealing with this bullshit) break it off with that pathetic motherfucker before things got even worse.

I feel so bad for the girlies and the gays n theys who are quite literally stuck in situations similar to this and feel as though there’s nothing they can do to save themselves and gtfo. I know ur out there, and I’m sending you soooo much love and good vibes, and also sending you the courage to take a stand against ur abusive/toxic/manipulative/whatever-horrible-thing partner once and for all. YOU! CAN! DO! THIS! I believe in you.

And btw, my msgs are always open so if anyone resonates with this or anything at all, feel free to reach out and I’d be happy to chat with you or hear your story!